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Ugh [Nov. 21st, 2009|09:35 pm]
I don't think people appreciate how hard it is for me to be social.

I grew up in the sticks, I have no natural social talents. Just a remarkable ability to nod and bullshit my way through any situation.

As a result this experiment of mine to be more social is something of a real revelation for me, and so far the results have been quite promising and reassuring.

But later in the evening i hit a brick wall when I was patently ignored and disregarded for 45 straight minutes of trying hard to contribute and not be rude. But I got to realize that most all of my friends simply don't find me too terribly interesting or worth regarding.

It reached a head when all I fucking wanted was someone to ride shotgun with me as I acquired much needed food. So I waited patiently. Was ignored. Everyone left for their own meals and i headed off alone and had no choice but to stew in my own thoughts.

So rather than subject everyone to my new found frustrations, I went home.

So let this stand as the explanation for my sudden departure.


I'm just trying to avoid being confrontational. But if there is one thing I fucking hate, its being cut off and ignored when I'm doing my part to contribute and yet i'm supposed to hit the brakes for whatever thought decides to run out of your silly head.

I'm going to bed.
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Drabble: Taste [Nov. 16th, 2009|08:37 pm]
Tanis smells of flowers, tea, and the scent of many others. Many weak. Many strong. They cluster around her like remora, clamoring for scraps of affection. The tea tastes sweet as he looks at her. Unlike many her body does not change. It doesn't quicken with a rush of fear or panic. Nor slow with patience and caution. Her calm disorients. Its a sour taste. Her beauty distracts. With this odd taste it is hard to focus. What I need isn't here. But there is something about her. I will need to see her again. Her company is simply... delicious.
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Weird [Oct. 9th, 2009|01:48 pm]
I've been in an odd headspace. More to come.
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Odd day [Sep. 16th, 2009|11:16 pm]
My very strange day took a turn for the worst with the death of the iphone. No idea whats happening with it, the screen spontaneously stopped responding. Have an apointment to fix it tomorrow. We'll see how it works.
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My official response to the latest addenda [Sep. 15th, 2009|06:19 pm]
Dear Camarilla MST staff,


Remember that letter I sent?

I was serious. Please stop trying to fix stuff. It just doesn't help anyone.


Jeff
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Dear Camarilla: PG-Edition [Sep. 7th, 2009|09:35 pm]
[mood | creative]

Dear Camarilla global staff.

Through various discussions with fellow players, I have stumbled and have come to a very distinct conclusion. A personal conclusion mind you. But one that others seem to agree with.

The game you were designed to control, no longer exists.

Allow me to elaborate.

Masquerade, indeed the entire OWoD was designed as an epic. A gothic-punk epic. With global organizations. Fully developed antagonists. A well rounded universal setting and very strict rules of rarity that warranted a massive, top-down approach to control, regulate and otherwise curb the ravenous maws of cheese weasels.
That is to say, an approvals network. At tiers marking the domain, region, nation and global levels. This system worked. Not great but not with remarkable failure either.

NWoD is a very different monster. And could be argued to be the opposite. It is more domain-centric. That is to say, with emphasis placed on localized and domain-level events and politics. Which warrants more of a bottom-up approach with high emphasis on local, domain-level politics and authorities that really don't need your help in fixing. Any game built like that, out of necessity, needs to rely on local ST's to curb item rarity and to enforce the setting. The average VST isn't a robot or an idiot. He is fully capable of designing and re-hashing a system to fit the needs of his players and create an interesting storyline that does not require your help in maintaining. This should free up your considerable talents with developing and focusing on elements like global story rather than rules calls.

Below is a list of noted problems and a short, relatively simplistic way of implementation. You already took the first correct step in the experience proliferation debacle. That is making the in-game experience start and earn ratio more in-tune with the system the game is designed for.

Problem 1) Status

A Global status rated on a 1-5 scale is simply inadequate. This is a game with several thousand players. So trying to say that the status levels 1-5 are somehow able to compress not one, not two but 5 extremely different covenants and clans into 5 levels of hierarchy on a global scale is a bit naive and very cumbersome.

I recognize the need of a global game and thus, a global pecking order. Though rather than extend the 1-5 status to encapsulate all levels of hierarchy, it is the opinion of myself and many that the system would be better served to reserve a separate merit to warrant global status. with prerequisites like "Must have 4+ status in clan/tribe/covenant etc."

As both the Tabletop and Larp books were written, the setting and rules describe a 1-5 status system saying that a status 5 of any group means he is the most important person *in a city*. Not a country, or on the planet. A *domain*. By taking it away from the local control. You have hamstrung the entire idea of localized clan politics and have heavily hampered items like the boon system as no one will respect boons owed by a guy with status 2 in his covenant. and no one feels obligated to pay.

Reinstating the status 5 to a mid-approval with a note of "each city may have 1 status 5 and 5 status 4's" much like city status in the Requiem book, helps alleviate the item rarity which the approval system is supposed to represent. And creating a new merit to represent a global authority would better serve the game.



Problem 2) Rules and Addendum

Trust in the authors of the books and just stop trying to curb the powers of the game. The setting itself doesn't need any fixing. in fact. It needs enforcing. By trying to create a global game you have in fact crippled many of the aspects of local politics, setting flexibility and policy. The Low ST's are the ones that should be the most familiar with the rules. and with every 90 page addenda you put out, you require them to relearn new rules.

I realize that this is designed to create a fair and balanced game, but the reality is that is makes the game seem imperialistic. Daunting, and uninteresting. Yes, some powers are grossly potent and quite disgusting to ever see in play. But to use them in game should be the decision and responsibility of the local ST's to enforce. Because no matter who writes the addenda, they will never see every game out there. And they will never be able to judge whether or not the individual games of this setting need or require powers like the Free Council 'save point' or the abusive might of the Lynx' discipline. Or the obscure powers of the Directional courts. Because it is not their right to decide what is best for a game they will never attend.

If you don't want to see those powers abused above the local level, include some sort of note for cons or ICC that says "XYZ powers are Not Sanctioned for this event." People attend cons for the social interactions and interesting plots. Not for the chance to show off their character sheets, rotes and abilities and throw down. That is a throwback to the evolution of the OWoD way of thinking and would be rendered obsolete in short order with simple, responsible storytelling by the presiding ST.


Problem 3) Approvals.

Linked to the above problem this has spun off into its own series of issues. And I could go on forever with the point by point list of what should and shouldn't be allowed.
But basically the point is the same. Rarity is decided by the players. Not you. Loosen up.


The game is designed specifically to allow many concepts. Bloodlines, sorcery, creative custom materials. By trying to control it all, you have crippled the idea of creativity. When a much easier fix should of been. Simply making all custom material High, within established rules guidelines and including the line "Local ST's reserve the right to deny use of any custom from a sheet they feel is unbalancing to their games". The custom material problem solves itself, again with responsible STs. If custom stuff makes cons daunting, just like above, include a rule that custom powers are not welcome. The game has rules for how custom stuff should work. And by creating stop-gap after stop-gap. You hurt the game more than you help.

Any and all VST's already have the right to deny any approval item they don't like in their games. And to reaffirm that in the addenda goes a long way in curbing what has been described as 'the hordes of cheese weasels."



In summary,

I see the point in restricting the application of specific items, such as rare bloodlines, antagonistic faction PC's, rare spells or rotes, mystic diseases, cross covenant status, custom materials, etc. But the game expressly allows for that and it is heavily based under the premise that the local game IS the most important thing. Relaxing your grip would do what you want the most. Give power and the ability to have fun back to the local games, because frankly, the local games are all that matter.

Its simple numbers. In a year, there is 1 ICC hosting the 4 major venues, and 6 or so major conventions similarly inclined. Not including featured games.

For 1 localized domain that meets weekly there are just under 50 games in a year allowing for holidays. And that is for one venue.

For my local area alone, we have a biweekly changeling game, a biweekly mage game and a weekly Requiem game. That does not include the local troupe games.

That is 100+ games for one domain in one year. 100 local based games with local politics for the singular purpose of providing fun for its local players and their visitors. And while I recognize that other areas meet with far less regularity than my local domain, when 1 domain's games have the national and global events out-numbered over 10 to 1 in terms of games. The raw scope of the number of local games should give you a hint as to how much emphasis the local games across the world deserve.

In summary, there are many problems in this club. Many of which, could be solved with less control. Not more. This would only fee up your considerable talents into focussing on delivering an awesome game, rather than trying to fight the never-ending battle that is stopping a system from being abused. Because it will never be an NST, MST or addendum that stops a bad player from abusing the rules. It will be the VST that has the responsibility to say 'no' to the right things for the sake of his game.


Thank you for your time,

Jeff Holland
Former VST requiem, Beneath the Facade, Unconquered Sun Domain
Concerned Camarilla Member
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Dear Camarilla [Sep. 6th, 2009|10:24 pm]
[mood | irritated]

Dear Camarilla global staff.

Stop trying to fix stuff. You only make it worse. I know you mean well. But let me divulge a simple fact to you.

The game you were designed to control, no longer exists.

Masquerade was designed, as a top-down, epic. WIth a global government. A fully developed antagonist. A well rounded universal setting and very strict rules of rarity that warranted a top-down approach to control, regulate and otherwise curb the ravenous maws of cheese weasels.

Requiem is precisely the opposite. It is a domain-centric, Bottom up approach with high emphasis on local, domain-level politics and authorities that really don't need your help in fixing. Any game built like that, out of necessity, needs to rely on local ST's to curb item rarity and to enforce the setting. Rather than a faceless overarching government who's only concern should be a global story rather than rules calls.



A few points.

Global status rated on a 1-5 scale is FUCKING RETARDED. This is a game with several thousand players. So trying to say taht status levels 1-5 are somehow able to compress a global-level heirarchy system is amazingly stupid. 1-10 might be more acceptable. but you'd be better served to reserve a seperate merit to warrant global status. with prerequisites like (must have 4,5 status in clan or covenant)
which brings me to my next point ont he subject
The entire base build system in the book describes a 1-5 status system saying that a status 5 of any group means he is the most important person *in a city*. Not a country, or on the planet. A *domain*. By taking it away from the local control. You have hamstrung the entire idea of localized clan politics and have heavily hampered items like the boon system as no one will respect boons owed by a guy with status 2 in his covenant. and no one feels obligated to pay.


Stop fixing the rules and setting. Trust in the authors of the books and just stop. The setting itself doesn't need any fixing. in fact. It needs enforcing. By trying to create a global game you have in fact crippled many of the aspects of local politics. The Low ST's are the ones that should be the most familiar with the rules. and with every 90 page addenda you put out, you require them to relearn new rules every damn time.

Rarity is decided by the players. Not you. Loosen up. The game is designed specifically to allow many concepts. Bloodlines, sorcery, creative custom materials. By trying to control it all, you have crippled the idea of creativity. When a much easier fix should of been. "Local ST's reserve the right to deny use of any custom from a sheet they feel is unbalancing to their games". See? custom material problem solved. The game has rules for how custom stuff should work. And by creating stop-gap after stop-gap. You hurt the game more than you help. Similarly are items you are just too tired to approve. Such as rare bloodlines, rare powers, and unusual effects such as sorceries, diseases, cross covenant effects, etc.

I know there is a lot more. But seriously, get that cranial-rectitis looked at.
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Writer's Block: As the Cookie Crumbles [Sep. 1st, 2009|11:53 am]
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If you ran the fortune cookie factory, what message would you make sure gets put in a cookie?

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I know where you live.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2009|12:50 pm]
Santa Rosa, CA,
98°?!

ITS FUCKING HOT
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Amusing [Aug. 23rd, 2009|03:55 pm]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oo6H_fB0xsI

Watch at least 30 seconds in.
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(no subject) [Aug. 16th, 2009|02:42 am]
God... damn... awesome...
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*Ahhhh* [Aug. 1st, 2009|09:27 am]
Ok...

Who has heard me bitch about my brothers idiot friends?

Who has heard me tell the stories of an infamous Rap Group?

Well I have good news.

They have a MySpace page.

http://www.myspace.com/cutthoatflows

Enjoy.

It is so hilarious bad it just hurts.

Silly white boys from Sebastopol.
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I live [Aug. 1st, 2009|07:31 am]
Game was good last night. As always. We had an awesome guest spot and the game had some cool personal plot rolling around.

I'm a little irritated at events that led up to game but game itself was good. And I want badly for it to get better.

Next week will be awesome. Despite party.

Its the game of the 21st I'm focusing now. Its gonna be great. Details coming.
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Happy Birthday [Jul. 28th, 2009|01:00 am]
And the best roommate ever goes to.... Red_Reader!


Happy birthday hon. The world is your burrito.
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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2009|08:48 pm]
God miserable damnit.
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Yeah.... [Jul. 4th, 2009|07:56 am]
[mood | Bad. Ass.]

Ever have those moments where you feel undeniably and utterly accomplished and badass?

That is where I am right now.

Sasha, Rob, we do great work together.

Lets keep it up.
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Frustrations [Jun. 15th, 2009|10:58 pm]
Frustrations are a lot like fires.

Small sparks can splash you, accumulate, and often they are just patted out.

But given enough tries, enough stimulus and enough heat in a dry environment, they can flare. Sparks fly and sooner or later, one catches and begins to grow into a fire.

Frustrations, disappointments and my own irritations have been spiking of late. And despite being gainfully employed, in school, in a great apartment, with fantastic friends, despite ALL of this, I manage to get pissed off and irritable.

What the hell is wrong with me?

I should be happy. And for the most part, I am. I just feel unfulfilled somehow. And even though I know the cause, I seem helpless to fix it.

My self-esteem is in the tank. I feel desperate and angry all the time. Like boiling water barely kept in check under a pot lid.

And those that try to help contain it just get burned.

If you are such a victim, please don't take it personally.

I'm just working through my own shit and its being obnoxiously complicated to fix.
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Complications [Jun. 14th, 2009|02:36 am]
Complicated things can be awesome.

Complicated things can also make my soul bleed.

Guess which one has been afflicting me of late.
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Happu birthdays [May. 23rd, 2009|11:33 am]
You know who you are.

You know I love you.

You know we should hang out.

:)

Happy birthday and similar such happiness.
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OMG WTF BBQ! [May. 16th, 2009|03:33 am]
Wow. Tonight was.... impressive.

I don't think I have EVER seen a night pass so quickly. People scramble so fearfully and an entire paradigm turn upon its ear WITHOUT sacrficing a single PC and yet maintain such a pure, true and absolute level of fear, anxiety, ambition, wonder, panic, and desire.


It. Was. Fucking. EPIC.



Too all that missed tonight. You missed out.


Wow.
PLEASE show up next time. This game can only get better the more people get involved.
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